Well, perhaps the term "ephiphany" is a bit strong. And curiously, this thought has occurred to me before, but only in fleeting glimpses, and then it vanishes, as if never having appeared at all...all memory of it gone. Last night it reappeared as part of a stupid sitcom.
One of the characters was speaking of a crush. The reason why they did not act on their feelings was so they could "keep on dreaming, instead of dealing with the reality as a failure."
That is why I don't submit things. As long as I don't send anything out and risk receiving rejection letters, I can hold onto my dream of being published. I can continue to fantasize what life would like if...
However, thanks to making my plans public (to send out my manuscript by the end of August) and thanks to some gentle prodding (thank you, Donna ) my manuscript has been delivered and is probably in a pile with other hopeful pieces. In 3-5 months, I will hear, and will then go from there...
Two days after I sent off my manuscript, I went to a book reading at the Boom Boom Room in St. Charles (right above The Lounge). W.E. Mueller was reading from his book Peaches and Cream. There was a 2nd author there as well: the son of the man highlighted in the book Confessions of a Mob Hitman.
Both readings were moving, in different ways. One of the
stories that Mueller read was "Uncle Albert." It had an O. Henry
twist at the end that really smacked the reader in the head in a
good way. I have purchased the book; it's a mixture of detective
stories and humor and poignancy. I have not finished the book,
but I will say that although detective stories are not my normal
fare, I enjoy Mueller's...
Flynn's reading was engaging because it was apparent how
emotional this journey has been for him. His father died before
the book could be published. It was easy to see how moved he was
as he wrote the preface and did the research to validate his
father's stories. Both father and son had been incarcerated, yet
here was the son, perhaps learning from his own as well as his father's frailities, reading stories for a captive audience. (I couldn't resist the bad pun!)
We write for various reasons. What do you most want to accomplish when you write? Who is your audience?